I feel like the beginning of this story is my life. Although I stopped consuming a while ago because I had a quite massive existential crisis while on shrooms that made me realize it was all meaningless anyways and I might aswell just live a life where I can at least make the others around me that haven't seen the things I can't unsee about reality feel happier about their reality because I can't do anything to change our sad reality anyways..
Yeah sometimes that all you can do for the time being.
You should write about that sometime :)