The beginning is the most difficult part.

So... I've been stressed out lately. I even woke up one night with so much headache that I had to throw up. I can't stop thinking about my future, should I study and get a proper education and if so, then what should i study? Or should I continue working so I can pay my rent and do all kinds of stuff that people usually do on their spare time and if so, then where or with what should I be working? My mind is messy... Well where are my manners, I should probably introduce myself. I'm Jerry and I want to see myself as a kind of "normal" citizen of Finland, I like to have a drink on the weekends and enjoy watching TV, I'm not that much into sports even tho I used to play handball. I'm not that old nor am I that young anymore and right now I work as a kindergarten teacher but after a month from now my agreement will expire and therefore the stress.

Well enough boring information about myself and back to all the difficult choices you have to make in life. So this all started yesterday when I were sitting on the sofa with my girlfriend, I were scrolling through Instagram on my phone when I happened to see her looking at some movie quotes and I noticed this one in particular:

And so I realised that until this very day I have never before taken too much stress about what I should do or where I want to be in the future, lets say 10 years from now. Just because I'm growing up it doesn't mean I have to have my whole future perfectly planned out, I guess I could relax more and enjoy the moment instead of knowing all the right answers. Or what does other people think? "I don't know" is one of my most used phrases now a days.

Just days before this happened an old friend on mine @acidyo were telling me to start posting on Steemit which he also introduced me to for almost a year ago when Steemit were founded, he told me this where really going to be something. Well I never really took it too seriously and time went by and so yesterday i decided that i should really try it out, and so here I am, writing about my messy thoughts.