Dear Raj808,
If our arm hurts, we can steel ourselves to the pain. If we break a foot, we can be determined to press on. But what happens when those very faculties that allow us to be determined, to control our emotions, are compromised? Then it's so hard to summon resources, it's so hard to manage our circumstance.
Our minds are mission central. They direct everything. When our minds don't work properly, it is so difficult. People outside cannot see the difficulty, so they blame the person who is struggling.
I'm sorry you have this struggle. I think writing is one of the best ways to cope. It gives you objective perspective. You can see your thoughts afterwards and evaluate them more reasonably. It is also a great outlet. And at the end, if there's talent--as there is in your case--there is a material reward.
Thanks for your comment. I think the story struck a few people.
That book is on its way, I know. Just let it percolate and don't stress.
Your Steemit friend,
AG