Oh, @ablaze, I am so very sorry. Here I am, having a cry. I cannot imagine that kind of loss. I'm amazed by your story, though, and how you have turned it into a celebration of life. Instead of allowing it to keep your family in a dark place, you have given your boys the gift of working through grief with activities that are meaningful and that help to honor your little girl's short life in a positive way. Thank you for sharing this. It can take a long time to get to the point where really difficult things can come out in our writing. Healing hugs.