Some artworks of tonight. And life thoughts. Not to be too over weary

Been thinking about how it's been a long time coming! Getting to that place to be vital and comfortable. I have felt unease in life, so keeping it straight to fight dis-ease. There have been sad stories and struggle but tonight I'm too tired to really focus on that. What's important is to uplift and be truthful , hey even when it can be uncomfortable. Again I go for heading in the right direction at least as a way to not lose anything. Keep the dreams alive even if they may change perspectives from time to time.

I remember days, months and years of working in a sort of duldrum state. But not really!! It's important to at least have pride, and do a great job! I like to be of service to the community yeah! I've had my thoughts intact. No one just wants to do grunt work. I've always had a few aspirations. Even when locked into a stressful grind for much of the time under the gun of poverty, you want to keep vital. You keep your humanity intact even when under strain. Family and friends are important. In the meantime of being overworked I had to deal with my own aggravation. Not working is even more stressful. What gets me through is homecooked food and gardening. At least have something that is refreshing and real

Many times I would say I don't like living like this. I didn't like staying in school all the time, same as being a drone at work. That's why when I do have time and some cash I want to make the most of it. I'm not one who goes on vacations or anything like that. I more go for reading good books and trying to socialise. Sometimes I don't get out much so reading helps so when I do have some conversation it gives me something extra I can talk about. I think I'm talking on about trying to stay sane in your own mind, while living in a rather gonzo society and culture

So on I go to keep reading and expanding my mind. To keep talking and writing it out. The more I vary up my life and expression the better my life gets. I like giving back. I like telling stories. I like hearing stories. I was able to write just a bit of music today. The computer fan was screaming at me, I couldn't take a break cause unable to save program. I was patient and finished some rhythmic structure, then recorded it in another program. I'll keep at it and at least familiarise myself with softwares while practicing some basics sound stuff. The more I do the better it sounds. Tomorrow is another go aswell!!

Day by day I continue to heal and feel better for sure! My energies are charging up!! Cheers!