I have not dared to express the taste

My desire to express my feelings was again paralyzed and broken. I have not dared to express the taste, I chose to fall in love secretly. In a state of concealment like this, I remain happy. Happiness is hard to explain. The space to love him is getting bigger and I do not understand why I have not really achieved it yet. Could he be too tall for me? Is he too perfect for me?