This jumped out for me: It further stops us from understanding how we are feeling, constantly putting us in victim mode, scared what the next move will be. Like a pawn in a game of chess. You have literally no control over your emotions because that is reserved for the one who dominates the relationship. You are only allowed to feel what they want you to feel. It affects your decision making skills, parenting and self esteem.
I recognise it very much and didn't realise that it keeps you from knowing yourself. I guess many of us have been emotionally abused on some level as so many parents weren't balanced adults and still fighting for power with their kids instead of really carrying them. It's so good that you are aware of this dynamic from the past when you were growing up and that you see it wants to be played out through you too now. Only that awareness of it is already very healing. Don't be too hard on yourself. <3