First of all be gentle with yourself and acknowledge that you are aware and that is the very best place to start, awareness. You will find you way again, do not force anything, you are young you are only finding out who you are and also who you want to be. I am 40 and know that that changes alot over the years, but you are showing a wisdom that you should be proud of. Embrace your emotions, they make you who you are, be proud of you and do some self love exercises each day. Your fitness will come, do something you enjoy.I love to walk and dance. Reach out to us on here if you need to, sending you much love and light xxx