beautiful! i literally need to mediate on this post.. SO many wise perls of wisdom for me.. especially this paragraph:

"Of course, I now realise that it wasn't really empty, I was just refusing to use what I had. Because I was afraid of emptying it. It only took being separated by thousands of kilometres to realise that. Here I have been, afraid that all was falling apart; feeling that I wasn't enough... there was never a lack... just an abundance that was simply being un-used, discarded, ignored.

and a VERy sneaky ending! you rock thank you!