Wow, dude! Hang in there! Good luck with your tooth infection! May it be gone soon! :)

And also don't worry how it looks when you are cleaning it! :D You shouldn't worry about such things. especially now. Because now you are a bit vulnerable because of the antibiotics and the infection so social fear like that will only drain you more of that energy you really need! So cheer up! And just get better! :)

Peace!