Oh my god this nature is soooooo beautiful bro ...
and I like the message a lot!
It let me start thinking what "lost" and "not lost" is and who defines that someone got lost.
I can relate to your time when you accepted to be lost but in stress everyday. I had those years as well. Fortunately I am not a father and all I need(ed) to care about was: food and a roof above my head. But both where not as secured as today and from time to time I miss those days a bit. The stress got me moving - I was in a big hustle every day and minute. Never a boring minute or me laying lazy on the couch watching youtube tutorials over hours. Today I need to force myself up to get into nature lol... I think I am lost now as well but just on a different level somehow.
Bro I can not tell you how much I would like to be under this waterfalls now... haha
I can feel you are enjoying your time & the lost :P
Yeah man, In a way the stress is motivating. The feeling that it is do or die... not literally die... but fail. I go in and out though... sometimes stress can really demotivate, make a person crawl into themselves and hide.
I suppose it is all about the balance. Finding balance in the feeling of not 100% knowing what your doing... but doing anyway.