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I can't do it
I am not good enough
They are all better than me
I will always fail
I just can't get up and face the crowd
I am sorry that's not me.

I am sorry
For the words I said, I couldn't have said it for it's useless
I am sorry that my actions affected you negatively
I know you say I did nothing wrong but I do know I did
Next time I promise I won't come out
I will just stay indoors where no one will be able to find me.

That's me, it's who I am
I keep saying the word "sorry" like I was born to say it
I always felt guilty and keep taking blames even when I did nothing wrong
I was told I wasn't the best
I was told that my peers are way ahead of me and I got to run to catch them
I was advised instead of being encouraged.

Every now and then I soak my pillow with tears
My heart aches and yearns for something
I feel so empty inside and I couldn't get the reason why
I didn't know what I need to be whole and complete
Until I took a step in believing that the action that I took we work out fine
Then I came to the realization of what has been lacking in me which was "faith".

I got faith in myself
I know I am not the best out there
I know that I may fail
But my failure doesn't define me
What defines me is my ability to try and never get tired
I have faith in me that I will be a success someday.

Faith in me makes me strive more
Faith in me gives me strength when I feel weak
I may not be that confident girl that can address a crowd of thousands
But I have the faith in myself that someday I will
Faith in myself, gives me the comfort and strength I yearn for
Faith in myself, fills the emptiness I once felt inside.

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