Story

In Primary School, I studied in a little catholic school pretty far from where I live now (still in Mexico though), I was really social back then but I also remember I was a bit of a douche, I really was happy and satisfied with my life but I remember being mean to other kids, maybe because of the many TV Shows that influenced kids back then. I had a little group of friends and we were very friendly with each other but once we parted ways into different Middle Schools we stopped talking to each other eventually. I remember we liked to play on Xbox a lot, Call of Duty, Grand Theft Auto, we were pretty united until I moved to a completely different environment and they went to different Middle Schools. I had a year long depression because of this.

While I was returning to Mexico a few weeks ago, I put some music and fell asleep, after a while I started hearing the music again, inside a dream, that was the only thing I remember hearing. The dream got pretty depressing, it was about how me and my best friend used to do everything together but after some years had to say goodbye in a pretty sad way, I can´t really remember but I pictured us as kids, crying at the very end of the dream. After this I wake up, everyone on the plane was asleep and the depressing song was over.

My thoughts on this

I woke up crying, which should mean the song actually provoked my subconscious to feel nostalgia for those times when I was all jolly and happy, the thing is: The song was in Japanese, a language im still learning and still can´t understand completely, I think the song´s melody is at fault for the feelings the song provoked, I know there´s probably some research on this topic already but I like to theorise myself before actually researching.

Since my Japanese is very basic, the idea of me understanding what the lyrics mean is close to impossible, meaning it couldn´t be at fault for the emotions I felt when I woke up. Why close? Maybe the subconscious made the lyrics sound familiar, giving it a meaning based on the melody´s mood and such. Why do I think so? Because after looking for the song´s translation I found it´s about a girl who believes she can do anything when she´s with her loved one. I´d prefer to not give the song name though, Im reserved with those kinds of stuff.

While both me and my friend are guys (and I don´t feel even the slightest attraction to him, seriously), the belief of being able to do anything when im with him must have reminded my subconscious about how imaginative and colourful we both were back when we were kids, provoking the feelings I had right when I woke up.

Why did I wake up at the end of the song though?

While I assume it´s mainly because of how used I am to the length of this particular genre of Japanese songs, I probably couldn´t take the emotions the song provoked when the chorus was repeated at the very end. The chorus must´ve played at the very start of the dream, when I dreamt I met him or something around the lines of that; when the chorus played again, it probably reminded me of the very start of the dream, when we had barely just met and were having such fun but made me realise it wouldn´t happen again and that we had to move on.

Conclusion

This might sound like fiction, I know, I barely know anything about the science of dreams and such but these little theories keep me entertained for a few hours with all the thinking and such. Feel free to take this seriously or not, Im probably waaaay off the track of the actual facts on this but it´s simply what I thought about this and how I felt towards it. Thanks if you made it this far!