My own reply as another continuation as I read more (a continuation of a few days back from my dream journal) which speaks to this series of dreams: I am working my way back, going to try and hold on as long as I can to the cross in order to learn my lessons--maps, guides, will use my beak pole to pick nuts and berries and not always garbage, a way cleaner for the light work. This pole that looks something like a crozier or staff of office, a bird topped with operational beak.