My 2018 - My first @Dlive Video - El crimen de creer (original song) "The crime of believing"

A raíz del concurso de @anomadsoul sobre estrenar la plataforma de Dlive, me estuve preguntando demasiados días qué podría grabar. Sabía desde un principio que sería algo sobre música, pero ¿un cover? ¿una canción propia? Era algo que fastidió por mi mente durante infinitos días. La plataforma de d-live ya me encantaba y estaba buscando realizar mis primeras transmisiones pero aún no había tenido éxito ni tiempo.

En esta ocasión me ocurrió algo muy extraño, y es que a pesar de que aún no sabía cuál sería la canción, estaba segura de que sería algo original, pero hay ciertas canciones que no quería mostrar y deseaba guardarlas para el lanzamiento de mi disco, aparte que ya he subido gran parte de mi repertorio a mi cuenta... Estaba sentada sola en el estudio haciendo una progresión que me gustaba mucho y tenía muchas letras en mente, pero estaba obtusa a querer hablar de lo mismo; siempre hablo de amor, de desamor, de esperar y de esperanza. Casi todos mis temas son para personas que han cubierto una parte muy importante en mi vida, sean amigos, parejas o caprichos pasajeros.

Pero en esta ocasión no ocurrió así. Y es que soy muy sensible y sobre-empatizo con los pequeños hechos que ocurren a mi alrededor, desde una cara triste hasta el llanto de un amigo. Y así fue como ocurrió con esta canción.

Letra:
Imposible olvidar
los tiempos de guerra y unidad
tanto creí que había por luchar
y hoy todo luce en tempestad

mis ojos no paran de llorar
quieren gritar, quiero volar

Coro

el crimen de creer
y luego no poder
tendré que devolverme a cantar
ya no siento mis pies
y pienso en el ayer
cuándo volverás para correr?

las calles frías y brillantes
las casas vacías, y las calles frías
el sol se burla de mí
pensé que sería humillante seguir luchando por ti

la gente, me mira tan extraño
y sigo caminando, y sigo olvidando

coro

Cuándo volverás?
cuándo volverás
quiero sentir un nuevo amanecer
Ya no tengo la fe para seguir

Coro final

el crimen de querer
y luego no creer
tendré que devolverme a callar
nunca sentí mis pies
Ya no pienso en el ayer
ya no volverás para correr

Muchas gracias a @anomadsoul por el concurso y por su gigantesco aporte a la comunidad.

Un abrazo, Aida.

[English version]

Hello, Steemians! Happy day.

As a result of the @anomadsoul contest about releasing Dlive's platform, I've been wondering for too many days what I could record. I knew from the start it would be something about music, but a cover? A song of my own? It was something that messed with my mind for countless days. I already loved the d-live platform and was looking forward to my first transmissions but I didn't have any success or time yet.

On this occasion something very strange happened to me, and that was that even though I didn't know what was going to be the song yet, I was sure that it would be something original, but there are certain songs I didn't want to show and I wanted to save them for the release of my album, apart from the fact that I have already uploaded a large part of my repertoire to my account... I was sitting alone in the studio making a progression that I liked very much and had many lyrics in mind, but I was obtuse to want to talk about the same thing; I always talk about love, dislike, waiting and hope. Almost all of my topics are for people who have taken a very important part of my life, whether they are friends, couples, or transient whims.

But that was not the case this time. I'm very sensitive and overly empathetic to the little things that happen around me, from a sad face to the crying of a friend. And that's how it happened with this song.

All Venezuelans know what territory we are standing on. We are covered in injustice, sadness and mental exhaustion. My motto has always been to go ahead and deal with it, but I know that for many people it is complicated; many deceased relatives, people on the bone and many despair. Those young Protestants who gave their all in the struggle for the country (many, many of them losing their lives, and leaving many families with a gray Christmas). I was never in a protest but I know of close friends who were there and saw what it was like to feel really hopeless and threatened up close.

I've never written a song about Venezuela before because I didn't feel like it at all, I'm more of a writer of my own stories and disappointments, but this time I was able to make it my own. The song I did is called "The Crime of Believing".

Lyrics in english:

Impossible to forget
the time of war and unity
I thought there was so much to fight for
and today everything looks like a thunderstorm.

My eyes won't stop crying
They want to scream, I want to fly.

chorus

the crime of believing
and then not be able to.
I'll have to go back to singing.
I can no longer feel my feet
and I think about yesterday
when will you be back to run?

the cold, shiny streets
the empty houses, and the cold streets
the sun is mocking me.
I thought it would be humiliating to keep fighting for you

People, they look at me so strangely.
and I keep walking, and I keep forgetting

chorus

When will you be back?
when will you be back?
I want to feel a new dawn
I no longer have the faith to go on

Final chorus
the crime of wanting
and then not believing
I'll have to go back to shutting up.
I never felt my feet
I don't think about yesterday anymore.
You won't come back to run anymore.

Thanks a lot to @anomadsoul for the contest and for his huge contribution to the community.
Hugs, Aida.

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My video is at DLive