Diary

On Saturday, a great evening is planned: good tickets, great places, a concert I've long wanted to get ... and a wonderful escort for me is organized. The second day I think about it ... I saw a young man only in social networks. And today, for the first time in my life, I caught myself thinking about ... "Do I need this?". For the first time in my life I love myself so much, and it's so good in my life that I'm not looking for someone to decorate it, even one evening. Interesting...

Sasha and I tried to keep the relationship ... In my opinion, nothing works ... Even simple friendly relations do not develop with us ... I can not get from him what I would like from a loved one ... Probably not worth it them to build in general ... You just have to go on ... I'm his ex, he's my ex.

I keep recognizing myself. Yesterday all day I tried to understand why I do not have the inspiration to work. And I realized that in fact, I have small needs. I do not work for money. I do not want excesses, expensive phones and cars. All I need is already with me. And it needs to be corrected.
It is impossible to earn money without adequate needs. All this time I gave all the money I earned to Sasha. By the way, by the way, it shocked him in due time. And yesterday I realized that I do it because I do not know how to dispose of them. I do not understand how this mechanism works: business-money-acquisition.
I'm already a grown woman. And it's time for me to think about the future. Even if I do not want a 5th iPhone, I want my own home, because I have a family, and I want it to grow with time.
So what kind of work!