Consquences

Life is risky, sometimes there's consquences.

Not seeing there is consquences for things Is my ego, hoping consquences are minor instead of major is not clear because of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not man up and accept the consquences I can't control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear never in my life having to accept possible serious consquences for being irresponsible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel angry no one else prepared me for the real world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what if the consquences for being irresponsible are too great as my mind imagined them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to just give up on fighting consquence and figure out if I've earned myself something positive or negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire positive consquences so I can stabilize my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire against negative consquences because I fear I can't handle any more problems from myself where I don't have any lower I can go but to feel more pain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear any more consquences will cause me more pain physically them I will be healthy to endure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to not react to negative consquences so that they won't hurt me and I'll not do any more pain to myself and my ego won't hurt life more then it had.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not slow down and accept my consquences good or bad equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what if negative consquences could even include death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse death as a consquences if there's nothing I could do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my warring of ideologies has sentenced me without me ever even catching on to the game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear getting into a war of idealogies when I put effort and attention into avoiding such things with all my energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to simply breathe through my percived failures when presented the opprituinuty to do so as a olive branch of peace.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear never having breathed so deliberately in my entire life until just now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my game of give and take being not as clean as I see it to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear knowing my ego but forgetting to stop when acting on it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear walking super hero stories in my ego when in reality i'd like nothing but to slow down and be safe.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to complain like I can't handle myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear forcing out new parts of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my life isn't clear if it's good or bad.

When and as I see myself fearing the consquences I've made in life coming to a head, I stop, I breathe, I realize I have played a part of games that I should have known better if I lived in reality and weren't a slave to my ego, thus, I commit myself to unconditionally accept my consquences past and future unless I can do anything about them or am presented with a choice to make amends.