Hello friend...I saw this post, then had a look at a couple of others. Is this something you feel compelled to do? What began this? It is very...curious. Also, it seems that you are having quite a bad time of forgiving yourself, or you're attempting to think of every possible thing you might need to forgive yourself for?
Yeah it's a technique I learnt, it's hard to explain but I've been using it on and off for several years it takes a lot of practice. Here's the site I learnt it from. Desteni.org