Excellent words. I couldn't have said much better.

Lydia, you know this post started with shaming and you also shaming yourself. I get that by your own words you hate being you. So I'm only going to say that my advice is start there, forget about the body issues and start with the loving issues. Betting people will get angry at this is not helping anyone, least you. Neither is hurting yourself to live up to other peoples standards.

I'm happy you've found a new relationship with another. Now let's see if you can find a better relationship with yourself. Much love Lydia, you always know where my inbox is and you know I'm only ever going to share you the truth of what I see, with love. Take care xo