RE: First Post on Steemit in 4 Months // Long term Depressive Episode
I've dealt with depression since I was 10 and realized that that's what it was.. I'm 26 as of Dec. 31st. I've never been on medication and I've tried to kill myself many times.. but always failed.. Come to terms with the fact that I can't self-terminate for whatever reason.. and am glad.. I have family who loves me and so do you..
All I can say is, you can beat it. It will always get you down, but you CAN beat it. Just have to figure out ways to kick it's ass and even then, you'll still have periods of time where it overwhelms you.
Keep your head up and continue to fight the beast, I am here for you if you need to talk. I know what it's like and I know all the different ways it can rear it's butt fucking ugly head.
Much love goes out to you, family.
I also, recently became a father.. and for the first time, I felt more than ever that I truly had a reason to live.. Even though the time surrounding her birth and after has been controversial and I have not been able to see her for months due to paternity not being proven in the beginning and my baby mama deciding to be vindictive over our relationship ending.. I am keeping my head up because my little girl needs me, fuck myself at this point is how I feel.. Depression can't have me.