It was very hard to lose her at 22, almost 23 years old. My whole world was turned upside down. I've really had to rely on others that have experienced this kind of loss, because most people my age can't relate. I hope you have friends that understand what you've been through, because without that, it can be very lonely.

And I hope your mom recovers completely and fully! I don't smoke myself, but my siblings do, so I know it is difficult to quit.

Merry Christmas to you!