I was reading this with some amusement thinking I feel exactly the same way.
Except for the fraud part, I try to be pretty clear with what I'm capable of and generally refuse to manage other people's expectations but still feel pretty awful if I think I'm not up to standard XD
Right this moment in my case though I have guilt paralysis and it's annoying the hell out of me no end >_<
Were you freewriting? If so mission accomplished :) If you were going for a story well one where you're the anguished character is still a story and you might be able to use it in a scene sometime ;D
Hahaha, i wasn't free writing. But I did accomplished something unexpectedly.
I was just trying to put the feeling into words. And it is 100% true that no matter how much I deny it I still seeks something presentable to the audience or readers in this case.
As far as I know this is just one off thing and not a story but then again I am kinda jon snow in this matter. I know nothing.
Wondering how far I can go with these blabarring..
Funfact I was actually planning on a comic strip but then again I don't know where to start. And I suck at freehand drawing and. Never used any tool..