Wow scary, I imagine that thanks to this you suffered a lot as a child, it hurts that in your case this did not disappear.
Do they still affect you like when you were a child or did you simply decide to live with this all your life without letting it hurt you?
My grandmother told me to “stare down” the faces and I did...and then things got weird in a different way. I found going to deep into that world had consequences I was not ready for so I decided to sleep with a night light on. I still do but I use my curse of seeing images in darkness to draw on black paper and bring forth what I see. I have since talked to others who have similar visions; it is not uncommon in artists.