So I'll do my BEST to rant (cough-cough) if I can breathe long enough (cough-cough) without choking on my damn mucous! This stupid illness is taking its toll on me. I can't go a few weeks of activity without the ratio of anxiety and immune system causing a total crash of my immune system. I had a fever for 3 days, and then it developed into bronchitis. It globbed up and I have so many fears regarding that, it's hard to keep up. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm tired of this burnout, I'm tired of the CPTSD, I'm tired of the anxiety disorder. I can't leave the house, I'm scared to be alone, I'm scared to leave the house alone (yes I worry about the house being alone), I'm scared to take public transportation. When is this going to stop? When am I going to get better? I had a few extra things this holiday season, but no, I can't have fun and enjoy myself a day or two more without getting so sick I have to literally stay in bed for an entire week. AN ENTIRE WEEK. I'm still still now, but I was bedridden for a whole week. It totally sucks! I don't want to get sick at the drop of a hat anymore. I want to do what I want to do without being scared to do it, and without getting sick. OKay!