Often times, I can come up with a preconceived notion or conclusion of what something will be, what something will look like, even if it's how I feel and intangible in terms of physical appearance. On the flip side, if I have a set goal, but without a set conclusion, then I can have room for adjustment and be content no matter what the outcome is. But when I am fixated on those conclusions, those preconceived notions that I sometimes come up with, then I can be very disappointed, and usually, in myself.

I have learnt to not remain fixated as much. I'd like to see better results, such as faster healing progress, better photoshop results from what I'm trying to achieve, more YouTUbe views, more curation votes on Steemit, etc. I have an image in my mind of what my photo looks like, of how I feel in the future, of some of my view counts, etc. I'll be disappointed if I stay fixated though. It's a goal, it's visualisation, but I know that it might look very different than what I think. I might have curated only a tiny bit on my Steemit post, but perhaps the comment that someone wrote encouraged me to know how much they appreciated what I wrote. That comment is worth a lot to me. SO I may not be able to do everything I'd like with my very old version of photoshop, but I figured a few things out and my lightsaber blades look pretty awesome, plus I have a few ideas of how I can do a few things with some different tools to make the tip a bit pointier, even if I can't do "that other thing".

Posting on Steemit, posting on YouTube, it helps me with things within myself. The popularity, the monetary gain, will come over time. Some posts do better than others. I am always nicely surprised when I make over $1.00. I know that I will at least make my own $0.02, so there's that. I know that people show up to read my posts, so that counts for something to me. I know that people comment and show appreciation. It would be nice to make a lot more than I do, but it's already pretty awesome that I've made enough to pay certain expenses.

Some days, I will feel bad. I think that's normal. But I know that it makes me feel uneasy when someone starts going on about upvotes in a comment. So out of courtesy, I don't do it. I try to give back value to someone who shared something of value.