Why do those who truly experience the world become more likely to become mute?

Five days of travel, as exhausting as if I had been on a rough sea journey.

I took many photos and videos to document, yet strangely, I didn't feel the urge to share them on social media.

The lush green wilderness stretches out to encompass the entire world, and my fleeting encounters and farewells with strangers leave many experiences unable to settle. And I forget where in the world I am because, in reality, I am insignificant, without distinction.

Witnessing the movements of the earth's crust from three billion years ago, where mountains and seas collide like the spring of life about to gush forth. Feeling that civilization is but a grain of sand in the course of history, and conflicts are but wisps of smoke in the natural combustion.

My relationship with the world is no longer something that can be summarized by a flippant phrase like "bravery and freedom." Facing the reality of the world, I need to be honest, which means closing off my outlets and turning myself into a vessel, allowing experiences to settle and sediment. Perhaps when I return to the muddy waters of ordinary life and recall the surprises of those journeys, I will feel where the emotions in life truly come from.

So if in the future, I don't share immediately, the words spoken and unspoken, perhaps it will be because at that time, I am drifting in the world.

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为什么真正感受世界的人，更容易变成哑巴？

五天的旅程累得像在船上做了一场颠簸的梦。
拍了很多照片视频记录，很奇怪的是，一时间我却没什么分享在社交平台上的冲动。
苍郁的绿野舒展为全部的天地，和陌生人浅浅相交又告别，很多感受是来不及沉淀下来的。
而我会忘记我身处世界哪里，
其实因为足够渺小而没有区别。

眼见了三亿年前的地壳运动，
山和海的碰撞像是生命的温泉欲要涌出。
感受到文明在历史进程中不过是一粒砂，
纷争在自然的燃烧中不过是一缕烟。

我与世界的关系，变得绝不再是
一句轻飘飘的勇敢和自由能够概括的。
面对真实的世界我需要付出的坦诚，
就需要关闭出口，把自己变成容器，
让感受和体验静置沉淀。
可能在我回归稀松平常的生活泥泞，
回想到那些旅途中的惊喜moments
才会觉得生命里的感动有所来处。

所以如果以后我没有即时分享，
说出口的话和没有说出的口，
大概是那个时候我正在世界漂流。