As I read your post, I was reminded of how I searched and searched for God's will and how I desired to be counted as a faithful servant. The words of John 15:16 seem to fit nicely with your theme:

"You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit--fruit that will last--and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you." (NIV)

Thank you for reminding me of my own journey. ✟