A Glimpse Of Heaven

It was the year 2012, during the New Year's celebration, that I decided it was about time I took God seriously. I mean, life was quite tiring and the future, hazy. If you know me, you'd know I hate uncertainties. So, imagine how I felt.

I was getting into my final year in school, there were talks of an impending strike, I knew my CGPA was nothing to write home about, I was worried about trying to get the next school fees, and I knew I didn't have a place to stay for the next academic year.

Yep, I was a basket case of uncertainties.

So, while we were praying in church, on that first day of 2012, I simply asked myself what I had to lose. My life was a miry clay and the Bible said He took someone out of miry clay, setting their feet upon a rock. I needed such assurance of stability in my life. I needed to know that someone's got me. I needed an anchor.

I said, "Okay, God, let's do this."

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I can't say the number of times I have fallen since then. I can't say the number of times I have argued with Him since then and I can't say the number of times I have ignored Him since then, but in all these, not once have I thrown in the towel.

Not once.

In those times when my sins are crying out against me, and the guilt reminds me how worthless I am, but for the blood shed for me, I crawl back to the Father and ask for forgiveness. I ask that He forgive me because His son died for me.

In times when I don't understand His silence, sometimes I scream at Him, sometimes I weep in my confusion, and sometimes I remain still and quiet, but in all, I am with Him.

In times when the wind has blown everything I hold dear, and takes away all the things I would have held onto to steady myself, I shut my eyes against the blinding sand and reach out for the One who says He is always there.

In all these experiences, I learn to lean. I learn to trust.

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Why I remain?

There is simply nowhere else to go!
Also, when I am frustrated with happenings around, to the point of indescribable weakness, I get a miracle.

Sometimes, though, I don't get to that point before the miracle comes, and I remember that He said that before I call he would answer.

Some weeks ago, I got one miracle before it was needed, and I understood what the songwriter meant when he or she said, "I stand in awe of You, Holy God to whom all praise is due."

Today, I got a miracle just when I needed it, and I understand what the songwriter means when he or she said, "Just about the time I just can't take it anymore, I get a little glimpse of heaven, just in time."

Finally, I have nowhere else to go.

Though He slays me, yet will I trust Him. I pray He keeps me near the cross.

I'm just testifying. If you need the full testimony, ask.

Thanks for reading.