Drugs!

For a moment he felt loved, alive and equipped to do more. Same boy who was notable for cold shoulders, pride and arrogance submitted to her will, cause in her life did his completeness lie. Another lie he took too long to realize. She never wanted him. He wasn't a miracle baby like she said. He wasn't brilliant neither was he unusual like she said. She will never tell him how truly vulnerable he was in her eyes as long as it helped her validate hers. He loved her, she loved his attention she had. What happened when the truth now begs to be told? She will fix a date, cancel it, fix another and never shows up. He will make excuses for her actions, but his brain wouldn't agree this time. Enough of letting her play with your intelligence and vulnerability. Only reason she said you were intimidating and proud was to make you let your guards down. Now look where is she is after you let your guards down. She feels up whenever she puts you down. He will wake up to the sad reality that they will never be together. They are not bad people, they're just bad together. He appreciates all the moment he thought they were good together and were meant for each other. Some things will never go. Some wounds will never heal. His beast begs to be shown. He can't help it anymore. He is no longer the boy who'd fake a smile to hide his hurt. A boy who will put himself out just for whoever will want. She killed him with all the times she ensured he was ignored. Now you See why everyone else is likely to get hurt when with this same boy they fall in love. He learnt to fly before he could walk. He did it all for her, but she rather he'd crawl. Who picks him up when he falls? Nobody. Who boost him up when his ego falls? Nobody. Saying nobody isn't really one for all, cause he's the only one who have always been there for himself and the pills too, they make feel high and take him wherever he wants. So amidst the hurt, he still hope for someone or something strong. He takes delight in how the pills works on his mind and makes him strong. Same pills they say it's wrong. Or if he continues that way, he will be gone before he ever had a chance to be young. Well, something is wrong. What was wrong? He never asked to be born. So if this pills will kill him, he was ready to be gone. Nobody asked for his consent before he was born. People died the first day they were born? What was the difference? Oh they were young! 7,18,35,89,250 whenever we die we are gone! It doesn't matter if you died at age one. Only good thing about dying young is that you're free of this life's struggles, pains, blights, sorrow and eternal hurts! Now people who doesn't know what it means to burn will come forth and tell you how much suicide is wrong! What makes it wrong? In the end life is a maze and a prison where no one comes out alive! What is the struggle to live if we will all die in the end? " What has been keeping us alive is killing us." The mystery behind the scenes. Since he wouldn't commit suicide because of his mum, he will see to drugs to move on with his life. He will smoke some if he feels like. He will pop one to feel more alive. He will bypass commitments and loyalty as he knew no joy with one when he stopped to fuck around. So let nobody tell me what to do or what kills or what is good for me! This boy will no longer ask for nobody's comments on how he lives. This boy will no longer ask to be liked. He will no longer try to be on top of your chat, so you are free to do whatever you like. He will no longer beg to be replied or ask for nobody to share in his plights. Fuck you, you and you again if you think it is pride. Whenever he is down, he will do whatever to get on his flights. After all, you all ain't sharing the same life. So, he will do whatever he likes, fuck whoever he wants and pop whatever he wants. If fucking around and abusing drugs is wrong, he doesn't wanna be right!
©David Daniels