@olivia08 OMG girl I am not smart at all. I struggle through life and it would be easier for sure if I had not such a strong will.and gave up on my wishes, me,already as a child.

My life is hard and will never be easy. No matter if I am kind or not people will never like me for who I am. So I gave up on that and invest more in me but the way we are raised, character and society are in my way.

I never had friends or made real friends although people see me as their friend (as long as I help.them). My ex was not different from that.

I live alone because it gives me more peace of mind. I try not to interfere with other people so I and they will not get harmed (I am attractive to idiots, stalkers, dangerous people and those who harm others and believe me there is not much you can envy me about although many do. For some reason a single woman taking care of herself is a threat to other people (men and women).
People only see what they like to see. They don't see I mainly stay home, never go out, not celbrating the weekend or parties, do never go on a holiday or go out. I do not smoke, drink, have a hobby except for writing, at 6-7 pm I am in bed and most of my days are filled with pain and each day and step I take is a result of poverty and bad health.
Still,if it comes to it it is worth it. I have more freedom as I ever had, already feel it that way if I can sit alone, am not disturbed and can do what I like. Well, I think you know what I mean.

I once told you you have golden hands. You are way more talented as you think. Believe in yourselfand do not forget to save for yourself! You are worth it and if people let you down because of it better now, now you still have a job as when you come back and tell you to.suit yourself. Use your talents for your own benefits. That is the reason you have them.

Happy day my friend. Blessings for you. 💕

Thank you for your congrats and telling me. 💕

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