MY ENDLESS LOVE

September 16, 2005

It was a cold evening. I looked up to the sky but no clouds. Perhaps the goddess of fresh air has decided to visit us once more. The previous days have been very hot and one can't even get a good sleep at night any more. Seated under the cashew tree and in the arms of my lover, I threw all cares to the wind. I could be here forever. Actually I am sure forever this is where I want to be. He whispered some sweet nothing to me and I smiled. My face turned pink all over again. Oh how much I love him. He held me in a tight embrace and I turned my face towards his to plant a soft kiss on his lips. Oh yes! I do love him.
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April, 2005

Here I was in an unknown land. I was done with high school but yet to get a valid admission into one of the universities in my neighborhood. I can't tell what the problem is. I am an exceptionally brilliant girl or perhaps so I thought but I always came first in my high school. Maybe I was just a local champion. Out in the world, it is a different ball game. I have just enrolled for an A level program. This program when passed will grant me a direct entry into the university to study any course of my choice. I was so thrilled when I found out about this opportunity and I won't let no distractions stop me from reaching my goals.

Here comes Joshua. Joshua has also just registered for the same A level program. A fine young man. He was lanky and light in complexion with a perfectly chiseled face. Pink lips and long eye brows. He looked at me and smiled but I didn't smile back. All I wanted was to get a room where I could drop my bags and baggages and then have a cold bath. I am not here to find love but then love found me.

Joshua fell in love with me the first time he set his eyes on him. He tried all he could for some closure but I wouldn't grant him that. There is a saying "when there is a will, there is always a way" Joshua figured out a way. I don't know how he got to find out I love popcorns. Popcorns was all it took for me to fall in love with him. Funny right? I have never been a materialistic lady. Joshua would always bring popcorn to the night class and give to me. This continued and became a routine. We would chat and eat popcorn while reading at night then go back to the hostel together at the dawn of the day. Then it happened. I fell in love.

September 16, 2005

Seated in his arms whilst listening to the sweet nothing he was telling me, a drop of rain fell on my forehead. I looked up and the clouds have gathered. We had to go back to the hostel. It was a long way from our favorite sport, "the farm", where we always go in the cool of the evening to profess our love to one another.

We quickly jumped up and took to our heels. The clouds chased after us. The wind was carrying with it every light object in it's way. I was in a short sleeveless jeans gown and as I ran against the cold wind, I had goose bumps all over. He halted me and removed his shirt and helped me wear it. What a gentleman, I thought as I looked at him trying to hide the smile gathering around my lips. That moment, heaven opened its tear glands and sobbed. In that moment, we were lost in each other's gaze and all we could think of was a kiss in the rain.
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He held my face up and kissed me deeply reaching for my hands and putting it across his shoulders but the rain won't let us love ourselves. It rained the more and we were drenched. We continued on our race towards the hostel. My hostel was the first and so it seemed like a good escape from the rain. On getting to my room, his elder sister and my cousin were inside singing. Ain't no way they will let two drenched individuals into the room.

It was suddenly dark. We had to head for his own hostel. We took to our heels once more and ran to his hostel. There was power outage and everywhere was dark. I hurriedly got myself out of the wet clothes even as he did the same. It was very cold. We couldn't find the match stick to light the candle so we lay on the bed naked covered with blankets in the dark just to keep ourselves warm.
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This is the first time we will ever be naked and so close to each other. Yes we have been dating for months now but all we have ever done was kiss. My heart was pounding seriously. I could hear his heartbeat almost falling off his chest and his heavy breathing. Then it started. His hands moved slowly around my small hips tracing my belly button then upwards to my bare boobs. He fondled the nipple a little and then cupped it. This sent shivers through my body down to in between my legs. He nibbled at my ears as his hands kept fondling my breast. I couldn't take this anymore. I turned facing him and in the darkness found his lips and locked it with mine in a deep passionate kiss. I wrapped my arms around his waist squeezing his small buttock and pulling him closer so there won't be space enough even for air. All I wanted was to melt into him.

He gently turned me upward and climbed on me. Searching my face in the dark he whispered,

I want to make love to you sweetheart. I can't hold it anymore. Do you want this?".

I tried to speak but my voice failed me. I wanted him inside me so badly. I pulled him downward to my body and kissed him. He understood the language perfectly and then gently parted my legs giving him access to my cookie jar. He gently penetrated. It was painful as I was a virgin just as he was. I raised my legs to ease his journey into my virginity amidst the the pains and pleasure. Little by little he went deeper and deeper as I buried my fingers into his back and then he stopped and said, "i am at your hymen. Would you want me to stop?"

Hell no way I was letting him stop. I wanted this. I wanted him.

With three gentle thrusts and a hard thrust he broke it. Oh the pain was so much that I couldn't bear it. I held his hips forcing him to a stop. He understood and immediately climbed off me. I was in so much pains. All I could think of at that moment was to go home. The light was restored and I looked at the bed with the ruffled white bed sheets.
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There was no blood. Wasn't there supposed to be blood? We were both marvelled at our discovery but then I was in so much pain and couldnt bother myself about the issue of blood. Perhaps I was not properly deflowered.

I hurriedly wore my clothes and tried to walk but oh no the pain was more than I could bear. I had serious cramps on my waistline and it felt like my hips were about to be disjointed from my upper body. It was like menstrual cramps but more intense. My vagina walls were hurting with each contraction but I had to go home. The skies were resting from so much tears and everywhere was calm.

I hit the road and was walking like someone who had one kilo of sand wrapped and strung to her panties with my legs spread apart. I remember him telling me, >please walk normal. Do you want everyone to know what we just did?"

I looked at him scornfully and continued my elephant walk to my room. The next day I avoided him and couldn't bear to look at him. I was so ashamed.

But was that the end of our beautiful romance? No it wasn't. We still had each other to love and to hold until the end of the A level program did us part. Not true. The end of the program wasn't to blame. Our love was in an era where communication gadgets like phones were for the rich and lucky few. Lack of communication tore us apart.

They say one never forgets her first love. I am a living testimony.

Thanks to #bycolemancontest for this opportunity to relieve this experience once again.