If I allowed people to push me around Id be dead by now man. That same person I mentioned in this post only a few weeks ago was trying to convince me to kill myself. Sorry but relaying ones emotion is not negativity, its a part of life. Sorry to hear about your brother-in-law. Because of my disease, I will never know the joys of going on a date let alone a failed marriage. I have neurofibromatosis - look it up and come back to me. id take 30 years of normal life than a sudden cancer over being born with something that fucked you over since day one.