That sounds pretty intense. I read your story. I like all the insights, but mostly I find myself wondering how long these thoughts and feelings will stay with you. Obviously, the thoughts are with you for a while, long enough to write about it here. But I'm wondering if this is the type of experience that will stick with you intensely for months. Or even years perhaps? I guess what I'm getting at, is I'm curious if this ends up changing you permanently as a person, or if it's something where the effects fade with time.