Random Ramble on a Friday ( am just empty)
its been a strange week. a just feel empty.
empty all the time a do not care for my self my family or my friends
am just empty.
because the option is chaos. unknown chaos.
a do not fell like making a long post to day. a just do not care.
The emptiness is safe, a now how to deal whit it. its my way of defending my self.
and am a afraid of losing control, am a afraid of getting in to conflict
To get a no from a job application. am afraid of explaining to my family or my friends
how a am over here.
am just a zombie. am afraid to go back to my self destructive old self.
so a just going empty.
just standing still in the bottom of the stairs
quiet, waiting for something my thought shouts at me to start to waking.
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Ugh. Sorry you are feeling this way. I hate empty feelings too. I'm not going to offer you advice....I'm lending my ear. I hope that enough for now. I hear you.
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