Life is a journey #6--- Dealing with depression

Hello guys!

I hope you all have a wonderfull day.Recently i was feeling really down (more than usual) so i decided to write about it.

I admit....I deal with depression for over 1 year and a half.Let me tell you...it completely changes your life in all aspects.Friends, familly, work, everything is harder to interact with. Personally, I got depression after my first girlfriend left me.I remember wanting to commit suicide because I felt like my life ended.I failed to see that I had a loving family, good friends etc. All was in my mind.I overthink a lot and that amplified my sorrow and sadness.I refused to talk to a specialist and leave the house for an entire month.All of that could have been resolved just by listening to my family and friends.

You see...my girfriend was a big part of me.She was part of the family and we were best friends too.The majority of my life was sorrounding my girlfriend and when that stopped i felt empty and alone...but again that was because of my thinking.

!!!Remember this: Every time you are feeling alone and sad, think that somewhere someone cares a lot about you and all things happen with a role.It might be the end of a love story but this can mean a start for a new one.

But for me depression hasn't cease to exist.I don't feel like at the start of it but i still deal it it at some form.
For example almost all the time in the morning when i wake up i feel a brick pressed by my chest.A sentiment of sadness but without any motive.It takes me a lot to get out of bed and do work or chores because i don't have any motivation.

I became an introverted person.I can't seem to have fun when I party or go out with my friends.I tent to remain outside conversations.

And it pains me when i think how i was before...I wish i can turn back time and go when i was happy and had no problems and issues.I wish from the depths of my hearth to wake up in the morning smiling, to have a person near me that loves me and can talk to...but for now i need to work with what i have.

Advice to you guys: Don't let depression stay in your life.As soon as you feel like you are not yourself go see a medic or talk to someone specialised.Don't let it put roots in your brain like I did because it way more harder to deal with it then.

See you soon with another post

Link to the start of the series:https://steemit.com/introduceyourself/@morticon124/life-is-a-journey-1-new-blog-on-my-page

Link to last episode:https://steemit.com/blog/@morticon124/life-is-a-journey-5-weed