Please, don't watch The Secret. It is another dream world. I guess you need to make a decision instead of dreaming of one.

They say that how you are in one area of your life is how you are in all the others.

I doubt that. Sometimes we overcompensate doing great in one area of life while messing things up in another.

I think I am at a similar place right now. I am trying to figure out what I am going to do next.

P.S. I suggest you take the kittens :) You can always move out with them.