Dear Diary: What I Do When I Cannot Sleep? Blog Like There Is No Tomorrow

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It is a day after my dialysis a few hours ago and as usual I could not sleep, sometimes I can just get some sleep but often I could not due to my taking of energy drink while I am hooked up at dialysis. But I didn't finish my energy drink so it was my breathlessness issue that is the culprit.

I feel like I had downed a jug of water so my breathing is not normal and difficult thanks to my close-minded nurses that would not heed my pleadings to take off some extra fluids. So I am basically slowly drowning for that matter.

But rain or shine I am just blogging, that is what I do even though often I do not feel well and I might as well distract my mind in writing my ponderings so that the community will get aware of my condition which is the same for the most part but possibly will worsen if no radical changes will be made which I am also trying to achieve.

There is nothing really left for me to do except to blog, blog, and blog so when I could not sleep I would turn on the laptop and try to steem on so that at least I could be productive while waiting for my body to want to sleep.

I do have many passions in life but my condition is forbidding me to do those. I could not simply put up a business and let someone or my parents to run it, it will not work that way. Learning a skill in the other hand requires some energy both physical and mental and with pain on the side it is impossible.

It just boils down to doing what I am probably god at doing which is to write and I thank God that there is steem community that helps me in coping with my situation in life which makes me sane and preoccupied with my mind.