Your emotions are being played and you have not taken control of those yet. Happens over time as the knowledge stops being perceived as weird by the mind the brain than can manipulate it and becomes able to be in control of how you feel. Than and only then will you be able to process emotional. When that happens you need more time, so as to be able to act in your interest.

P.S not trying to rub salt into the wound. It is what it is?