Oh gosh this surely sucks! Hugs, hugs and hugs to you as the mama. It is not your fault. As much as you do feel guilt, know you are the right and best mama he can have, @mumma-monza! Peace to you and diving healing to your boy! <3 Don't be too hard on yourself.

I never thought I would be the person to write so openly on something so personal, but here I am doing things I never thought I would again. This time free writing my thoughts have been somewhat cleansing as an opportunity to get it out thoughts and emotions try not to let them manifest further.

Though I can never totally understand what you are going through, I bless you with grace as you go and grow through this time with him. Thank you for sharing it as it is and be vulnerable, as always.Glad that writing also serves as a good therapy for you, especially with so much emotions you have to bear.