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RE: New Painting: Alchemy: Dragon, Mermaid with Sigil, Part 1
I can relate not really fitting in anywhere here. I feel like I need to change the world just in order to function here without a problem, so I uses that's what I'm supposed to do.
By painting yourself as something that doesn't fit in won't you reinforce that not being able to fit in though?
Very nice painting.
No I don't see it that way at all, but thank you for the good question @whatamidoing. Accepting the fact that I do not fit in is the fact. I can't change myself. I don't even want to "fit in" to the mayhem that calls itself "reality" out there now. Narcissism is the new norm. Nihilism rules. Where I live, I am surrounded by zombies - people completely unaware of life off the grid and off the internet - it's bizarre.
What I do is pray all day when I am out in it. Literally. I know right from wrong, and the worst part of dealing with the world is that so much absolute horrid behavior passes off as "ok" these days.
I use art to process my experience and I use sigils to help me with the 85% of my brain that might be stuck in my former world view.
I get it. I try to see it that there is room in this world for people who "don't fit in" that we actually fit in in our not fitting in, if you think about it, a lot of people who didn't fit in have been idolized by those who do fit in. John Lennon comes to mind. Others may not be idolized but they write books and songs and share ideas that change the world. We are supposed to be here, it's not a mistake. :-D
What's your former world view?
I know you get it... the perfect hair, nails manicured, made-up people are not likely on steemit - yet anyway... my former world-view - well I bounced back and forth between the darwinian "evolution" psy-op paradigm and the messiah's gonna save us paradigm - I believed that I could abdicate personal responsibility for saving the world - that it would just go away if I did not learn about what was going on- and I was (still am) super right-brained so I lacked courage to stand up for my self (I work on that by educating myself and practicing) - my former former world-view I was super fearful and bullied those weaker than I and was bullied by those tougher than I, and sought escape... I have had a few transformations in this lifetime -