Busting Out

It’s interesting how things sneak up on you, isn’t it? For several years now I’ve been dealing with anxiety. It has controlled my life in many ways. So some days I just wake up with it. My whole body is tense and my hands and feet tingle. I get out of bed feeling like I’ve forgotten something important and can’t remember what it is. This feeling can last all day and can make me exceptionally irritated. It makes focusing on tasks difficult and often makes me seem like my head is in the clouds.On these days I also tend to be very edgy. People often ask me: What sets off your anxiety? It can be a variety of things or nothing at all. Driving is impossible for me, I have tried, but every time I get behind that wheel I feel like my heart is going to explode it gets very hard for me to breath. Going shopping is also very hard for me. The crowd of people can stop me in my tracks and once my hearts start pounding and my palms get sweaty I just leave. Living with anxiety can be so difficult. It makes living my life almost impossible at times. It’s like the entire world is conspiring to make me feel like complete shit and I never know when it’s going to happen (which in and of itself is anxiety inducing). Not many people Know that I have this problem until last year. I had been dealing with this for years alone . It was a relief to speak out about it to some friends and family . I felt like I was busting out of my shell and letting go of that fear of what people would think of me. This is how this drawing came along a reflection of myself busting out trying to overcome this horrible thing called anxiety.

Busting Out
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