Plumeria Hummingbirds. How I Got From Nightmares To Light. Story From India

So I finally can disclose the painting I was doing for over a week for our beloved @lichtblick, a dear friend of mine who many people here follow. It's his 3rd painting in the collection of my originals and that makes me really happy.

Final result of this 30 x 40 inches oil on canvas

But what makes me ever more happy was his today's reaction when he saw it. He messaged me immediately telling me how much he loves it. That more than anything made me really happy.

Before I show you the painting I will tell you a story. Yes there's a story that goes with the painting. It's a story of light. And it's a real story from my not too distant memories of much darker times.

I hope you will like it.

Ever heard that story of "Everything is made of light?" Well you know, for me it was just one of those "intellectually agreed" stories just like "We are one" that everyone kinda believes but nobody lives the truth of. Until one day. One day in an ashram in south of India when I was facing long months of terrifying nightmares that had no story in them, just pure ancient terror of collective human karma that was annihilating me every night. States of fear that did not end when I woke up. That was the most challenging period of my life and I was thin and dry as a sad story written on an old parchment, ready to crumble. Nobody was able to help me, I was completely hopeless.

Getting ready for the leap in the unknown....my journey in India, both inner and outer

One night, I finally gathered the courage to do my best and stop my desperate run for life and face that force of destruction. I said "ok, take me, I'm yours.". In that moment, with my eyes closed, I saw a drop of light descend from above and as it touched my body I exploded. I saw, yes I saw it with falcon clarity, that every single DNA molecule inside my cell had LIGHT coiled around it, waiting to be unleashed. When that drop of light from heaven touched my body, I exploded into supernova of light, and I went from curled up ball of fear on the floor to spreading my arms wide towards the sky as I melted into the ocean of Divine Love. Last memory I had was tears of joy streaming down my face. I died in the arms of God that night.

After my breakthrough my smile of inner joy could not leave my face

When I woke up the next morning, I knew my life changed forever. I knew that no matter what will happen in my life and on this planet, the thing that created us is always here, waiting for us to stop running from ourselves, so we too can melt into the indescribably fierce love of Creator that no thing/body can EVER taint or be separate from. I am a passionate person and I feel Gaia's pain and say words that might hurt some egos because I am truly sick of seeing this planet suffer because of our ignorance. But behind that, there is ALWAYS the knowing (this time EXPERIENTIAL not mental, that cannot be erased ever again) that everything is fine in the whole Cosmos and we shall arrive back home one glorious day.

Still at Amma's ashram

I hope this story made you wanna go there. One day you will. And I promise you. Nothing, nothing worldly can come even close to fathom the immensity of this experience. We Are Light my friends. Intelligent Creative Life force manifesting as Light, omnipresent and eternal. Remember that today when challenges show up. Much Love to All <3 <3 <3

Taking the final train to the airport, on my way back home, feeling like I was given the greatest gift of all!

I hope this story brings you solace when the hard times come. We have truly nothing to worry about. That, my friends, I can promise you with my whole heart.

Tomorrow I will show you step by step process on this hummingbirds piece!

Thank you for your support, always!

Big Hugs to all of you!

Peace,
Jan
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