My Fault

I don't hate you
for not caring about my feelings,
I hate myself
because I cared too much for you.

I don't hate you for hurting me,
I hate myself because I keep on
forgiving you.

I don't hate you
for making me believe
with your lies,
I hate myself because I
believed in all of it.

I don't hate you
for making me feel worthless,
I hate myself because in despite of it
I still chose to stay with you.

I don't hate you for breaking my heart,
I hate myself for I am the one who broke it.

Yes, me—
I broke my own heart
when I started to love you.

I should not blame you in all of it.
I should not blame you for causing me so much pain.

My fault, not yours.