"A Hollow in my heart" - A Poem With Original Watercolor Painting

A Hollow In My Heart

It hurts a lot deep inside and I just hide it. All the pain I feel is piercing me but I'm still standing. Every time I saw you with someone, it is burning me inside. I still did not forget the happy moments we`re together.
Feels like I don't have any hope.
Feels like there's nothing left for me.
Am I dreaming?

I want to wake up to the truth and forget about my past.
I couldn't stand the pain I feel deep within.
I am in the darkest part of my life. Why is it like this?
Do I deserve this? All the pain and suffering?

Should I end everything?
Cut my self with a blade?
I feel everything is falling apart. I want to end this nightmare to set myself free. But I'm smart enough.

I was raised by my mother to be brave and strong to live by myself. I realized that there are more things that are more important than you.
I believe I just woke up from a bad dream. Now it feels like I am reborn with new life. Everything I see is God. I am so happy and feeling refreshed. I realized that a lot of people love me. Now I can say I'm free from you.