Man, I'm going to make you a suggestion... slow down, relax, take a deep breath. I suggest you join a community like MSP, posted at the bottom of the post, there you can ask for help and hopefully, you will receive it. I'm working now to make a post to help other people like you, but it's going to take a LONG time, probably by august, since there is so much to write that isn't told in the fixed posts...