But then the every day life pulls me back to normal (?) and I think, there's nothing I can really change. ...
Until then, I'll buy my organic food, avoid plastic bags and try to give my family as much love as I can.

Yes...
Being pulled back can be a beautiful thing, a life-saver... or it can be restrictive, but I have the feeling it's more a thing of beauty in your case.

(I was actually writing a lengthier reply to you, when I had a personal epiphany.
Thank you for that, and for your comment!)