Why do white people need a notebook

And I do not write, I do not write, No matter how hard I try, I can not wipe the sweat from my forehead ... I do not have any walnuts in my hazelnut. My nest box keeps silent all day, My white notebook is white and white. And I'm afraid, and I can not believe, That the word will not light up more, It will not flare up on the lips. ... Here I will clear the table of garbage, And finally burst with music My long fear - silence fear, And will become slippery, as in the mudslide, And my dumbness will part, And - all the spoiled waste! .. Why is there no nut in the hazel grove, Why are my starers silent? Why do white people need a notebook