Mental Health

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Mental health is one of those things people don't want to talk about. Almost nobody wants to admit that they have a problem. Hell some are even embarrassed or ashamed of the fact that they might need some help. But mental health issues isn't something you can just snap out of, it's an illness just as serious as gangrene and needs to be treated seriously by the sufferer so help can be obtained.

There are a variety of mental health issues including but not limited to depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, schizoaffective disorder, borderline personality disorder, disassociation disorder, dementia and so on.

I personally suffer from some serious mental illnesses that I'm having treated. And yes I'm clinically diagnosed. Self diagnosis is far too tricky and does require appropriate professionals to properly diagnose you. Treating your mental health issues can be costly, but luckily there are multitudes of clinics around that are either low cost based on a sliding scale which is based upon your income, or free. You just need to look for clinics in your area for your needs and your income level and try your best at calling around or having a friend help you with the research into a place to seek help.

Online Help, any good?

You've likely heard of some of these services, especially recently via YouTube's content creator controversy with a company called "BetterHelp". Which honestly most insurance providers will cover much of the cost of in clinic mental health and the free or reduced cost clinics that are around you'd save money by just seeing a regular therapist at a clinic.

Regardless, you need to have a level of trust in your therapist which you can't personally do online. Some clinics do have telehealth services in which you see a doctor or a therapist via a Skype call, however the vast majority of the services you get online are not that, they're just text chats over IM. That's not exactly therapeutic. You don't have to take my word for it, you can instead take the word of a licenced therapist's word at it instead.

My mental disorders

Ok so let's get down and dirty with what my mental disorders are. I suffer from bipolar disorder (depression, obviously) and dementia, as far as what I can tell I'm not exactly sure what "Psychosis (NOS)" actually entails other than "Not Otherwise Specified" but OK.

Part of my issue, my biggest issue, is dementia. You know that question that doctors ask if you see or hear things that aren't there? I actually do hear things that aren't there, and smell things from time to time too depending on my mental state. If I'm stressed I'll smell putrid garbage even if nobody else smells it. The voice in my head is as clear as crystal despite the fact that I'm deaf (little obvious it's not a real person when I can hear them without assistive listening devices).

The voice in my head is belittling and emotionally damaging.

  • Nobody ever loved you
  • You're a burden on everyone
  • People will thank you for killing yourself
  • Dying would be doing everyone a favor
  • You'd make everyone's lives so much easier if you just died
  • You're better off dead
  • Nobody will ever care for you
  • You're a pathetic waste
That's what's always in my head, day in and day out, from the moment I wake up until the moment I can finally fall asleep, that voice is there, constantly telling me how useless I am, how little I'm worth, how nobody cares for me nor loves me, telling me non-stop that I'm better off dead and to just end it all.

It's a non-stop cycle, a constant battle.

It's not glamorous, it's not fun, it's not a game, it's not romantic and it's definitely not something to claim to enjoy. It's hell dealing with. And honestly seeing people on Tumblr call the problem "headmates" and act like it's this glorious and fun thing that they wish upon everyone is frustrating to say the least. It's like they're making fun of my mental disorder, treating it as some sort of game. And while doing so, they're making my mental disorder out as something that's not that big of a deal.

Dementia is a huge deal, regardless if a voice is telling you to hurt others or to hurt yourself. Eventually, dementia will wear the mind down causing the person to do it. It's not a game and it's certainly as hell not fucking fun, cool nor hip to have.

Get Yourself Help

Get yourself help. I have, and having help has prevented me from killing myself. I just wish I could get the voices to stop.

If you're at risk of suicide, please contact a suicide hotline. Yes it's a bit awkward but the people that man those lines have been in that position before, they too once were about to end their own life or have tried. They know what you're feeling and so it's a sympathetic ear to talk to. They really do care.

There are even TTY suicide hotlines for the deaf and HoH. And if that doesn't work for you, I beg you to please dial 911 and tell emergency services that you're feeling suicidal who will get you the help you need.

You may be institutionalized for a week or two, but this is fine. They're just keeping a watch on you to help you stay alive while they try medicating you and giving you therapy to help you through that tough time. Once you're stable, they'll discharge you with prescriptions to continue taking. Plus, they have social workers at these mental health hospitals that'll help you with looking for a mental health clinic that you can go to for continued therapy and medication and if you're SMI like myself they'll help you with finding a path to get on disability and get you the full benefits you're entitled to as someone with a mental health disability. (SMI is Seriously Mentally Ill.)

It's hard, even mentally, to get help initially, especially when you're at your worst. Because the thought of giving up control of yourself to someone else is terrifying. I'm aware, been there before, done that. You'll be extremely tempted to try to weasel your way out, but try your best to avoid that temptation and go with the authority services and get the treatment you need.

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Nice post on mental health.


\nn/ It was needed I think, I've seen quite a few people who don't know how to get the help they need.

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Breaking the mental health stigma can only happen through actions like this. When I started writing on steemit it was my mental health journal and the tool in which I worked through many of my own "issues." Awesome to see someone else taking that dive. :)


It's not easy being open about these things, a lot of folks prefer to hide it and put on a mask. Doing so also keeps them from seeking the help they need which hurts them more in the long run rather than getting better. Hopefully this helps someone, all I can do though.

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It's very courageous of you to open up about your mental health. It took me 10 years to be able to do it on a more public level.

I have a few mental illnesses: Anxiety, CPTSD, and I used to have depression.

I've been learning a lot about mental health and how Personality Disorders are very different and how they can affect people, about abuse and such. I've started sharing as well because it can help someone else who is in the place I once was. It's not always easy to admit some of the symptoms. I can talk about it generally these days, but sometimes to just admit at this very moment what I can and cannot do because of some fo the symptoms takes more courage.


I find it easier to write about it than it is to make a video on it. I've been sitting on this subject for over a month now wanting to talk about it on video and gave up and resorted instead to writing about it.


Understandably. Writing is a lot easier. I wrote for myself for a while before I could talk about it. But when I write, I prefer to write fiction. My best medeum for sharing my thoughts is verbal, even if it doesn't always come out in the best way. I write notes, but I always end up elaborating and explaining a lot more than I wrote.

Each person has s medium through which they get better express themselves, and it can be quite liberating I find to be able to do so. The important thing is to not keep it bottled up inside to fester.


I'll stick with writing about it for the time being until I'm comfortable speaking on camera about it. :)


:) You are already writing about it and letting it out. That is a big win in your journey. Healing takes time. These small victories help us along in many greater ways than we know. :)


I have been suffering from acute OCD for more than 12 years.I used to wash my hands like crazy and now I keep checking everything in my house.

Like checking if the ovens are turned on,checking the lights,fans,get up several times to see if my door is unlocked.

These obsessive behaviors are really killing me every day.Still,I don't go to the doctors because I am afraid what people would think of me and my family don't want me to visit a psychiatrist too.

It feels so bad that how society treats the people with mental disorders.So many are afraid to seek for help.


I think you need medication and therapy combined, but there's nothing shameful about seeking treatment, family and appearances be damned. If you need the help, you need the help, end of discussion there. =\

The medication you'll be prescribed will probably be something like loxapine and clonazapam and in therapy sessions you'll talk about things that bother you and get things off your chest but you'll also have a counselor who will help you learn coping mechanisms that'll, over time, help rid you of some of those compulsive habits.


Thanks for the advice.


Very welcome. Are you in need of finding a clinic in your area?

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