The Great Alienation From The Natural Way Of Life (How Did We Get Here?)

A few minutes ago I got really tired. Tired of everything. Edward Norton in Fight Club tired.

I need to be free from all of this bullshit. But HOW? The minute you step outside you are DEAD.

You need money to survive. You exchange money for shelter and money for food - two most basic needs. And you get money from your labour. Money is considered to be the value you receive for your contribution to the society. But what if you are like me and you don't want to contribute to this society? There are no means to live of your labour. You can't produce food and you can't create a shelter.

Why is that? Its because you need your land to produce food, and to create a shelter. And if you don't own a land, you can't grow your own fruits and vegetables. Land is private or owned by the State. So you basically don't have where to go. Well, except deep wild but I am not the type of guy who would enjoy living in the woods.

While we are discussing this, have you seen the movie Into the Wild? A close friend of mine did. One day on February 17. 2014 he just disappeared, and we didn't heard from him ever since. I don't know if he is alive even. Latter we found out that he was feeling kinda like me now. We hacked his facebook, and found out some notes is he's apartment. He couldn't endure the pressure any more. That exactly how I feel now, but I don't see the answer running into the woods.

Anyway I digress, let's get back to the point. So what the hell did we created? Or better yet, what was created for us? While I was thinking about that some birds passed by, and I think to myself, lucky you, you don't experience existential crisis, you don't have to pay bills for your nest, you can even create a new nest if something happens in a matter of days. Plus you are free to roam this beautiful Earth whenever you feel like it, and move to more warm places when you are cold.

But what would happen is I just decided to do that? First thing that comes to mi mind is where would I feed myself from? Its summer now so I can sleep outside for about 3 more months. I would starve to death. Well ether that or I would have to steal money or beg for it which is not my style. What about a place to sleep? I can sleep outside because its warm not, what would I do then winter comes?

Only solution I see for these two problems is moving somewhere on the country side, find some fields where farmers grow fruits and vegetables for sale and ask them to work for food, and find an abandoned house for me to crash. But what would the quality of my life be like? I would be damned to live a life of a hobo, never have a women by my side, with no friends and nothing to aspire to, or to look forward the next day. Nothing would get me out of bed (if I had one), besides the bare necessity of finding food.

So here comes the great conclusion. Basically we traded civilizational advancement for freedom. We are advanced creatures driven by self actualization, because someone else is taking care of our basic needs. We work on other things that provide value to the society and exchange our value trough money with those who are producing food and building houses. But how advance are we if we can't live without our society? Maybe we are aliens on this planet, because we need the perfect temperature to survive, we can't leave outside, we can't walk without shoes, we can't coexist with other animals except the cute ones, we can't eat food that not processed... Or maybe we alienated ourselves from this planet, and the nature we once called ours.