Alone

Have you ever felt so alone that you let your mind run and run and it feels like it cant stop and all you want to do is give up and explode.. Do you ever feel like when your in a crowd you feel like your under water and cant breath? People all through this world has depression or anxiety or just always feel so alone like they have nobody. Well i know that feeling and im here to say itll get better, it will be tough but you have to look at the hood things you like and believe in yourself. When i was little going to school all my life i got bullied and would go home crying because i never had friends and i always got name called. My parents would try to cheer me up but i felt useless. This kept happinning all the way through middle school from elementary. As soon as i hit high scool i actually started to get friends and started to date boys, well here is the thing i would date a guy for 2 weeks tops and if i wasnt liking them anymore i would find someone else and do the same over and over again. I always thought i had to find someone else so quick because i didnt want to feel alone again. Well one day i started dating this guy and for some reason i felt different and i felt like a whole new person. He made me feel like i actually was a somebody. So i stayed with him as long as i wanted to, then i started to fall in love i guess and i never belived in love or ever been in love before and i didnt know what i was doing. So what did i do i messed it all up because i was scared and i let him go. Then i got out of hand again and kept dating guys and partying and not caring about my self. Well i got back in contact with the one i love and we worked things out and well what im trying to say is if you dont care about yourself and feel alone you could actually be messing a good thing up that you actually want. You have to go out there and try it and keep strong about it. Who cares what people say, i say do you and do whatakes you happy because its your life and your choices!